Take Your Zebu to Work Day

This morning Zippy and Zebu headed downtown to Zippy’s office.
It’s Take Your Child to Work Day.

Zippy is an engineer.
Zippy is currently employed by a company that filed for bankruptcy.
Zippy doesn’t have a whole lot of work going on right now.
Zippy is terribly worried Zebu will think engineering work is boring.
I’m terribly worried Zebu will think engineering work isn’t boring.
(Just kidding!  Well, kinda . . .)

Still, Zebu chose to accompany his father rather than his mother to work.

Could it be because Zebu already knows
my work involves multiple trips to the kitchen to see if something tasty showed up since I last checked?
Did Zebu avoid my workplace because he knows  
I’m likely to spend considerable time pacing the room, talking to myself?
Or could it be Zebu is avoiding me and my work because
yesterday as I sat writing in front of the window a turkey vulture circled my house?
( assures me the vulture was only there to carry off dead words, but it’s still worrisome.)

Either way, I was left alone to contemplate my career choice.
I’ve gotta say, no matter how tough this road to publication,
I’ve never, ever contemplated being an engineer.

And that’s okay.

             

Procrastination, Nevermore

Okay, so it’s a grackle rather than a raven.
And I’m no Poe.

Nonetheless.

I hereby pledge to tackle my revisions today.
I pledge to crack the characterization/plotting code
that has stymied me these past weeks and fueled my ongoing procrastination.

I will prevail.

My feathered friend assures me this is so.  


                    

Friday Five: The Z Edition

  • Good news:  Zebu’s nose is not broken (despite getting elbowed while playing basketball). 
  • More good news:  Zippy goes in this afternoon for his second stress test to adjust his target heart rate and blood pressure.
  • It’s official: My zombie-like cold symptoms are in the past (ht to C.K. who suffered her own never-ending zombie illness this winter).
  • Were you aware that Z-therapy is a form of psychotherapy in which the patient is forced by a group of people into a cathartic release of pent-up emotions?  But when the group of people is made up of three household males who insist on stacking dirty dishes on the counter above the dishwasher, does the ensuing shrieking cathartic release truly qualify as psychotherapy? 
  • This is the result of Zippy hearing a whoo-whoo outside the window in the early morning but realizing  too late the zoom lens wasn’t mounted on the camera: 

Wishing everyone a wonderful weekend.

         
                   

Suspended Animation

Okay, this is how I see it:

The finches are literary agents. 
Feathers unruffled.
Watching.  Judging.

The wing-flapping junco is me. 
Nearly manic with hopes and dreams.
Flapping.  Dancing.

Look at me!  Look at me!

But what the junco understands
and what I need to remember (again)
is that sometimes
the hunt
is 
suspended animation.
  

                

Hard Work

On Saturday I reintroduced the 1000 Words/Day rule
which puts me at 3000 words on my WIP.
I’m also shooting for the 1 Chapter/Day rule on my revisions.
So far, so good.

We all know the writing life can be difficult.
At times we feel as if we’re banging our heads on walls.
Guess what?

This flicker literally bangs his head.  Everyday.  For hours and hours.

And because today is another WINDY day in Colorado, he’s banging his head
in HIGH winds (notice ruffled feathers on head and back)

Now that’s hard work.

         

Feeder Therapy – Day 1

You’ll need your imagination for this.
Number one on the list is imagining I have an awesome camera.

Okay, imagine a feeder filled with American Goldfinches.
Next, picture a much larger Flicker flying in to land on the feeder, scattering goldfinches.
Pause a split second as The Bravest Goldfinch of All returns to the feeder.
Imagine a couple more goldfinches tentatively returning. 
Hop.  Hop.
Count to ten and watch the Flicker fly off again as a mini-swarm of goldfinches,
brave and not-so-brave, returns.

         

Grief Timeline

Today is four weeks since my dad died.  Early on, several people who do grief counseling told me my thought processes would be messed up/foggy for three weeks.  It’s true.  They were.  Are.

This morning for the first time I not only itched to get working again but felt as if I could do some decent work.  I’ve fallen out of my 1000 words/day habit and haven’t started revising my funny MG boy book.  However, last week I wrote up notes and thoughts surrounding draft 1 of another book (BB) and printed those out so I could hit the ground running on draft 2 when I pull it out again in several months.  I forced myself to do this because I was sure that project was the culprit taking up valuable space in my brain, keeping me from the revisions and writing 1k words/day on a new project.

So this morning, free from that other project, I felt the itch.  Not only that, I felt like my old writer self feeling the itch.  Me and the itch.  I decided it was time to do some scratching, time to get serious about those revisions. 

I opened my laptop and started reading through revisions notes I’ve taken over the past four weeks.  Suddenly, I felt teary and panicked and overwhelmingly tired.  And I knew I wasn’t quite ready.

I closed the laptop and took a nap.

I’m sure I was right about the other project taking up valuable real estate in my head.  But I obviously still need a little more time to make a little more space for my grief.

Patience isn’t one of my strengths but in this case, I guess I don’t really have a choice.  It just means I’ll have more time for watching birds in the feeder.  That is, until the Cooper’s Hawk arrives to sit on my back fence and all the juncos and sparrows and finches disappear until the coast is clear. 

Eventually they’ll be back, and so will I.

                      

Flicker Invasion!


                                                    photo © Ryan Houston

I don’t know what’s going on here today but I’m flicker-rich right now.  

They’re hopping on my roof, sitting on my deck and fence, eating at my feeder, poking
at the ground, flying to and fro, driving my cat, Lebowski, mad.

          

Early Birds

This morning I got up at 4:45 in order to join the local Audubon group for its 27th Annual Spring Bird Count.  I got to where I was supposed to be a couple minutes past 6:00.  A little bleary and slightly anxious since it had rained in the night and I wasn’t able to find my rain pants before I left and had forgotten gloves.  And hadn’t packed a lunch or snacks since I didn’t realize it was a 5-6 hour hike. 

But those worries faded when I met the friendly master birder leader-guy who got very excited when he learned I’d never participated in a bird count before.  He introduced me to the rest of the group, all seasoned birders, and said, “She’s got a good pair of binoculars so she must know what a bird is.”

Gotta love a man who admires your bins.

The birds were singing their little hearts out from the moment we started.  I heard many but cannot yet identify them.  (Maybe

 could give us a tutorial.  Snicker.)

This is a who’s who of what I saw (master birder leader-guy told me up front I might only see a quarter of what the rest of them saw):

  • Say’s Phoebe
  • Cowbirds (in a group of 3-4)
  • Yellow-breasted Chat
  • Kingbird
  • Red-winged Blackbird (many throughout morning, singing a song I know)
  • Red-tailed Hawk in its nest
  • Great Blue Heron (saw three herons or maybe the same one three times)
  • Starlings
  • Robins
  • Flicker

The big excitement happened when one woman announced she’d possibly sighted a Hepatic Tanager which is not usually found in Colorado.  The master birder leader-gal (who is married to the master birder leader-guy) whipped out her walkie talkie to call the other group which was covering a different portion of habitat.  Much activity ensued as we were instructed to call out any details we saw (light bill; red on top of rump; orange-ish underneath rump; etc) as others checked guide books and one man went back to parking lot for his scoping lense and  the other group hurried to join us as  master birder leader-gal called out “Does anyone have a Western Sibley?” (which is the authority in field guides).  It was like an episode of ER except without the blood and guts and blue scrubs.  After a half-hour watching this extremely cooperative bird hop about in plain view from trunk to branch as it caught insects, it was decreed a Summer Tanager.  I gather that’s not quite as exciting as a Hepatic but also rare so will be reported to the rare bird hotline or some such.

Continuing on, I saw:

  • Yellow Warbler
  • Bullock’s Orioles (2 males and 1 female who watched as the males chased each other)
  • Spotted Towhees (2 males carrying nest materials)
  • Yellow-rumped Warbler
  • Song Sparrow (which has one dark spot on its white chest, an identifying feature I think I’ve internalized and will know from now on!)
  • Cowbird (through the scope which was very cool although it would’ve been cooler seeing a cowbird lay its eggs in another bird’s nest)
  • Evening Grosbeaks

About this time the master birder leader-gal said, “There goes an American Finch saying ‘potato chip’ as it flies over head” and as I struggled to hear it she said, “Gone.”

  • Turkey Vulture (although I couldn’t see its red head through my bins)
  • Orange-crowned Warbler (whose orange crown is impossible to see in the field so how they knew that’s what it was is beyond me; something to do with wing bars or something)
  • Long-eared Owl (sitting in nest so that I could only see one ear and the top of its head but it was still a thrill.  Seriously)

Birders are some of the nicest people you’ll meet.  They made sure I saw what they were looking at and answered all my questions and pointed out differences in bird songs (too bad I immediately forgot them and/or confused them with another).  If I hadn’t been so cold and hungry I would’ve stuck around for the whole outing.  As it was, at 9:45 I thanked them for a wonderful morning and headed back to my car. 

Next time I’ll come prepared.  Who knows what they saw after I left?

            

Look who came to visit!

This is a Spotted Towhee (image found on photobucket). I happened to glance out my window today and saw a bird hopping around my backyard. I grabbed my binoculars but instead of getting overwhelmed the way I usually do as I try to remember every little detail, I recited them aloud: Black head and neck, white chest, white spots on wings, white on tip of tail, red eyes.

Then he flew away. But when I picked up my bird guide and thumbed through, I found a match. And sure enough, the description matched mine.

That, my friends, was a very satisfying birding moment for this bad birdwatcher.

A Book to Change Your Life

My friend once teased that rather than a birder, I was a “ducker” because I was never quick enough to identify birds but could usually, eventually ID a waterfowl as it paddled about. I felt somewhat intimidated by people who knew grosbeaks from finches from sparrows from the multitude of other little brown jobs. No way was I cut out to be a birder.

But somehow in the past year or so I began watching the pigeons that flock near a neighborhood intersection, taking great joy in their synchronized flights and landings. They always made me smile as I sat at the red light. Then I started seeing crows in certain cottonwood trees as I drove Zebu to school each morning, and they made me smile. And then I started watching for birds everywhere I went because I realized birds made me feel good. Calmer and more centered. They give me hope.

Which is what How to Be a (Bad) Birdwatcher by Simon Barnes is all about. Basking in the wonder and delight of birds, and then easing into the understanding of identifying who and what you’re seeing. In the beginning, he warns, you’ll make mistakes. Embrace those errors.

From page 94: “You start by blundering about and making a good few blunders, too. Everybody does. My advice is to carry on blundering in a totally unembarrassed way. The more you look, the more blunders you will make, and the more blunders you make, the more you will see, and you find that slowly a pattern has been building up without you realizing it. This building up of patterns is one of the deeper joys: once you begin to understand the rhythm of birdwatching, you are beginning to understand the rhythm of birds themselves. Which is nothing less than the rhythm of life.”

I happened upon this book in the library and cannot recommend it enough. It’s funny and poignant and life-affirming. The travesty is that the book is out of print. Really, that makes my heart hurt. The good news, though, is there are used copies available. I can’t wait for mine to arrive so that I might read it again, marking the many passages that brought me joy.

Simon Barnes doesn’t go birdwatching. He is birdwatching. And so am I.

My new best friends

It’s been Robin-Mania around here the past week or so but none of my pics turned out so I borrowed this one from Photobucket. 
Robins are such fun and they make me smile.  Every time.
Wishing all a wonderful weekend.

           

Random Stuff

I just watched a great blue heron wading in the run-off pond near my house.  That’s what I want to be in my next life.  (Um, a heron, not a run-off pond).

The Bolder Boulder photographers just sent the link for me to check out my race day photos.  Yikes.  The photo of me running in the stadium toward the finish line shows one very tired woman.  Zippy had five photos taken of him and I’m in three of them, running behind him like some oxygen-deprived stalker.

The official race results are now available and I discovered my time was nine seconds faster than I thought.  Woo Hoo!  But even more exciting, out of the 448 44-year-old women in the race, I had the 26th fastest time. (Technically I’m 27th but one of the women is listed as “Steve” which Zippy insists is a mistake.  I pointed out there was a female character named Ralph on “Green Acres” but he insists that fact is not germane to the discussion).  Anyway, I was pleasantly surprised by my race position and it took the sting out of getting a much slower time than I’d hoped for.

I’m trying to sort out plot issues for my middle-grade WIP but started feeling overwhelmed by all the possibilities.  I was writing ideas, many of which were “maybe X does this because such-and-such…”, and I started to feel panicked by not having anything to hold onto.  So I started a THINGS I KNOW list.  I’m writing one-liners about story details I know for sure, and it’s helping me figure out what else I know.  Now I don’t feel like I’m drowning! 

Wildebeest had his last day of 7th grade on Wednesday and Zebu finishes 5th grade today.  We’re all quite happy putting this school year behind us.  We plan to celebrate tonight with some dinner and bowling.

This morning I went to the nearby tech school and bought a bunch of perennials from the student greenhouse which means I need to get outside and figure out where to put them in my various flower beds.  I bought two forget-me-not plants because they remind me of Alaska.  Now if only I could get a moose to come hang out in my yard………

Wishing you all a wonderful weekend.