Self-Exposure

Creative writing is a harrowing business, a terrifying commitment
to an absolute. This is it, the writer must say to himself, and I must
stand or fall upon what I have put down. The degree of self-exposure
is crucifying. And doubt is a constant companion. What if I am not as
good as I thought? is a question that always nags, and can cripple.

~ Walter Kerr


image from morguefile.com

Today I’m struggling to stand upon the words I’ve put down.
Begone, doubt!

Solace in Bloom




       


Flowers seem intended for the solace of ordinary humanity.  
                                                                                 ~John Ruskin

 

                                                            © Tracy Abell 2011

Singing My Own Song

                  

A bird does not sing because it has an answer. It sings because it has a song.
                                                                                             ~ Chinese Proverb


                                                                                                              image from morguefile.com

There are so many things we could learn from the birds.
If only we cared to listen.

                 

Stop and Smell the Tulips

                

Before you embark on a journey of revenge, dig two graves.
                                                                                       ~ Confucius

                                                                                                                                          © Tracy Abell 2011

Seeking Out the Unremarked

        

 Discovery consists of seeing what everybody has seen and thinking what nobody has thought.

                                     Albert Szent-Gyorgyi


                                                                                                                            © Tracy Abell 2011       

Szent-Gyorgyi was a physiologist credited with discovering Vitamin C,

but this quotation gets to the heart of what it means to be a writer, too.
In fact, when reading it I immediately thought of something Marilynne Robinson told me (paraphrased):
 
Most experiences are unremarked.  The tendency in writing is to focus on the already evaluated
and already delineated. Instead, as a writer, aspire to bring to the forefront the unobserved.
 
Every story has already been told; it’s the telling that makes each different.
 
                

Splash of Color

         

I hope you love birds too. It is economical. It saves going to heaven.
                                                                                                   ~ Emily Dickinson


                                                                                                                         © Tracy Abell 2011

It’s a gray day but these male House Finches are ablaze in their wooing finery.
Maybe I’ll go put on something bright and chase those clouds away . . .

                   

Epiphany!

                 

While on the plane flying to Hawaii, I jotted notes for a new project as I reread highlighted bits from
EMOTIONAL STRUCTURE: CREATING THE STORY BENEATH THE PLOT by Peter Dunne.

And I finally, finally understood what writers mean when they say they have to know the ending
before they can write the story.
I always thought knowing the ending meant I had to know the "plot" ending, the action ending,
and I never understood how writers already knew whether their books would end with a car chase or picnic in the park.

 
But what knowing the ending really means is to know the "story" ending, the book’s emotional ending.
 
As Peter Dunne says:  
The whole idea of beginning at the end is to create a target at which you aim all your action and emotion."
 
I get it now!
 
If I map out the emotional terrain ahead of time, I’ve mapped out the heart of my story,
and the action is just there to support those emotions, whether it’s a chase scene or picnic.
 
Emotions rule!
 
                

Deep Thoughts

               

 
                                                                                               © Tracy Abell 2011

                  Marriage should be a duet – when one sings, the other claps.
                                                                                                           ~ Joe Murray

                  

Nature Nurtures

         

When I start to panic and worry, I look to Nature for my calm.
Saturday I ran on the trails with Zippy while a Red-tailed Hawk soared above.

Today, I return to last week’s Starling visit for solace.
As long as there are birds in my life, I can find the courage to carry on.

                                                                                                                               © Tracy Abell 2011

And because I’ve been reading THE ANNOTATED CHARLOTTE’S WEB:

I would feel more optimistic about a bright future for man if he spent less time proving that he can outwit Nature and more time tasting her sweetness and respecting her seniority.

                                                                                     ~ E. B. White
                     

Signs of Procrastination

           


                                                                                                      © Tracy Abell 2011

“Artists can color the sky red because they know it’s blue.
Those of us who aren’t artists must color things
the way they really are or people might think we’re stupid.”
                                                                      
                                              ~ Jules Feiffer
             
Oops.

         

No Holding Back

          

"Wherever you go, go with all your heart."
                                                                ~ Confucius

                                                                                                                                      image from morguefile.com

                        

Waste-Not-Wednesday: Precious Time

              


Life is too short, and the time we waste in yawning never can be regained.

                                                                                                                         ~ Stendhal

                                                                                                                                   image from morguefile.com

So stop that lollygagging, people, and get to it!  

                

Friday Five: The Translation Edition

               

Can someone tell me what this sign is trying to convey?


                                             image from morguefile.com

Is it . . .

1)  "Guitar Hero" is to blame parents.  Loose children call the kids "Roadies." 

2)  "Guitar Hero" is to blame.  Parents lose children (and)  call their kids roadies.

3)  "Guitar Hero" is to blame parents’ loose children.  Call the kids’ roadies!

4)  "Guitar Hero": Is to blame parents’ loose children (equal to) call(ing) the kids "roadies"?

5)  "Guitar Hero" really isn’t to blame.  It’s those damned parents and their loose children messing with the roadies.

Regardless of your take on this sign**,
I think we can all agree that nobody should mess with the roadies.

** After posting, realized this sign was put together via this link
but still think the meaning is open to interpretation.              

Hawk-Writer

              

Hello, Monday!

 
                                         © Tracy Abell 2011

This Sharp-shinned Hawk stopped by yesterday,
and watched as I photographed it from my deck.

“A serious writer is not to be confounded with a solemn writer.
A serious writer may be a hawk or a buzzard or even a popinjay,
but a solemn writer is always a bloody owl.”

                                                                                       ~ Ernest Hemingway 

Apologies to Barb ( ), but I’ll strive for hawk-writer this week.
                       

Coming Unstuck

             

From WORD PAINTING by Rebecca McClanahan:
When Broadway composer Stephen Sondheim was asked about his creative process, he replied, "If you asked me to write a love song tonight, I’d have a lot of trouble.  But if you tell me to write a love song about a girl with a red dress who goes into a bar and is on her fifth martini and is falling off her chair, that’s a lot easier, and it makes me free to say anything I want."  As we’ve already noted, it’s hard to write effectively about a large abstract subject – grief or anger or love – without first "sweating the small stuff."

I’ve come to the realization that I need to sweat the small stuff 
a bit more before continuing to draft my new project.
I don’t know enough truths about the characters and their lives.
Yet.

So it’s off to my notebook for further discovery . . . 

I’m curious about the rest of you:
how do you know when you know enough about your story to begin writing?

                     

Serenity: A Work in Progress

                  

      
Today the sun is shining
but two days ago, snow was falling.


                                                                             © Tracy Abell 2011

“Serenity is not freedom from the storm, but peace amid the storm.” – Unknown

I’m working on it.           

                    

Listening to My Broccoli

 

From Anne Lamott’s BIRD BY BIRD:

It [listening to your broccoli] means, of course, that when you don’t know what to do,
when you don’t know whether your character would do this or that, you get quiet
and try to hear that still small voice inside.  It will tell you what to do.  The problem is
that so many of us lost access to our broccoli when we were children.  When we
listened to our intuition when we were small and then told the grown-ups what we
believed to be true, we were often either corrected, ridiculed, or punished.  
God forbid you should have your own opinions or perceptions — better to have head lice.

I realized yesterday that I am, indeed, listening to my broccoli.
I don’t yet have an entire first chapter of my new project,
but I’m taking my time with what I have written and, so far, love it.

Every book I’ve written has followed a different process,
and I’m hoping this one will be slow, steady, and broccoli-guided.

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                                                image from morguefiles.com

And it just so happens broccoli is my favorite vegetable.
                       

A Thought on a Friday

“Life has got a habit of not standing hitched.  You got to ride it like you find it.
You got to change with it.
If a day goes by that don’t change some of your old notions for new ones,
that is just about like trying to milk a dead cow.”
—-Woody Guthrie

Wishing everyone a wonderful weekend
filled with new notions
and maybe
a wild ride or two.

If you need a weekend soundtrack, this is a great one.